nice to know there's someone that hates that term as much as I do! :D
like, my work and drive speaks for itself (yours as well); that's earned. if it's not enough for the situation at hand, then there's something dangerously wrong with the org process/chain of command/etc. not everyone has the luxury of encountering genuinely amazing bosses early on in their career to establish that sort of early confidence in org quirks (and getting the feel for 'what is just quirky in this org or actually unhealthy' barometers) - and I actually feel like a lot of the 'why aren't the wimmenz in this industry' talk needs to re-focus around concrete way that early-stage bosses can feed them high profile projects and shield them from political bullshit that can destroy confidence before it's cemented. (RIP $chill_boss, you will always be a hero in my eyes for actually telling $other_department to shut it when i got too ambitious too fast.)
(edit: I wrote this comment before reading the comments and it's interesting seeing how vastly different my experience is, huh. disclaimer that I've been in east coast orgs?)
Howeverrrrr that being said - weirdly enough i've felt far more genuine imposter syndrome (as per the definition) from ~identity politics~ in groups that i definitely qualify in on paper. Are you enough of a ________ to really be a ________, kind of thing. Are you still deaf in terms of community if you have a CI. Are you still queer if you're bi. Which is bullshit. But it's interesting how those two examples are on opposite spectrum in terms of physical proof - i can prove i'm deaf with signed documentation from the audiologist, but i can't prove i'm bi, strictly speaking. And yet - even when I deliberately separate myself from the 'community' because of hot messes like that, there's clearly a ghost of wanting that validation beyond feelings. (Why, I wonder? Because there's no barometer of performance like work ethic? If you're shunned from the community, what barometer /do/ you have in a non-clinical way? Not like you can just go join a different organization that's sane with the processes.)
(I mean- I can go on about this for years, it's a thing, and it's a thing i feel like is a bigger problem in liberal circles than everyone wants to admit, but I've said enough heresy in this one post already. : P ) (Regardless - will touch on this tangent in a longer post about my complicated feelings on Pride that i've been picking over for the last few months; queue'd it for march since i didn't want it to fall awkwardly in Feb and bring connotations I didn't intend, oops.)
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Date: 2019-02-08 03:51 pm (UTC)like, my work and drive speaks for itself (yours as well); that's earned. if it's not enough for the situation at hand, then there's something dangerously wrong with the org process/chain of command/etc. not everyone has the luxury of encountering genuinely amazing bosses early on in their career to establish that sort of early confidence in org quirks (and getting the feel for 'what is just quirky in this org or actually unhealthy' barometers) - and I actually feel like a lot of the 'why aren't the wimmenz in this industry' talk needs to re-focus around concrete way that early-stage bosses can feed them high profile projects and shield them from political bullshit that can destroy confidence before it's cemented. (RIP $chill_boss, you will always be a hero in my eyes for actually telling $other_department to shut it when i got too ambitious too fast.)
(edit: I wrote this comment before reading the comments and it's interesting seeing how vastly different my experience is, huh. disclaimer that I've been in east coast orgs?)
Howeverrrrr that being said - weirdly enough i've felt far more genuine imposter syndrome (as per the definition) from ~identity politics~ in groups that i definitely qualify in on paper. Are you enough of a ________ to really be a ________, kind of thing. Are you still deaf in terms of community if you have a CI. Are you still queer if you're bi. Which is bullshit. But it's interesting how those two examples are on opposite spectrum in terms of physical proof - i can prove i'm deaf with signed documentation from the audiologist, but i can't prove i'm bi, strictly speaking. And yet - even when I deliberately separate myself from the 'community' because of hot messes like that, there's clearly a ghost of wanting that validation beyond feelings. (Why, I wonder? Because there's no barometer of performance like work ethic? If you're shunned from the community, what barometer /do/ you have in a non-clinical way? Not like you can just go join a different organization that's sane with the processes.)
(I mean- I can go on about this for years, it's a thing, and it's a thing i feel like is a bigger problem in liberal circles than everyone wants to admit, but I've said enough heresy in this one post already. : P ) (Regardless - will touch on this tangent in a longer post about my complicated feelings on Pride that i've been picking over for the last few months; queue'd it for march since i didn't want it to fall awkwardly in Feb and bring connotations I didn't intend, oops.)
tl;dr feelings r weird